For the last 10
years, a whole decade (!), my every decision has been centred on my children. Time is now romping
away, and as my children are growing in the ir
independence, I find myself having to remember how to be independent too. Somewhere
along the way, I seem to have lost the ability to be me.
This September my youngest of three girls finally started
school. All of a sudden my life has moved into a new phase and my head is a
swirling mass of thoughts and emotion. I love being a full time mum to my
children but I feel a huge sense of relief that I will now have a little more
room to be me. I feel a bit guilty that I appear so pleased to be ‘rid’ of my
children, but the reality is I know the y will benefit from seeing me with a wider range
of interests and achievements. Besides, I plan to continue as a full time mum
so the re really won’t be a massive
change for the m. I will still be
taking the m to school, doing the ir washing, helping with homework, cooking the ir dinner and acting as chief chauffeur and
mediator of conflict resolution. But, I also want a beautiful home full of
handmade and homecooked goodies and I want a lush and productive garden. I want
to be fit and healthy and I want to run my own business and earn money in a way
that leaves me free to offer the m
all the love and support the y need, whenever the y
need it.
However, I don’t intend this blog to be a gushing stream of
parenting related traumas! I want to share and record all the things that make me me, not the parent stuff – I get plenty of that in the day job. I am sooo excited about the possibilities now open to me, but I am also
overwhelmed with my decade long bucket list. Watch this space to find out what
I do next!