Friday, 19 September 2014

A new beginning…

For the last 10 years, a whole decade (!), my every decision has been centred on my children. Time is now romping away, and as my children are growing in their independence, I find myself having to remember how to be independent too. Somewhere along the way, I seem to have lost the ability to be me.

This September my youngest of three girls finally started school. All of a sudden my life has moved into a new phase and my head is a swirling mass of thoughts and emotion. I love being a full time mum to my children but I feel a huge sense of relief that I will now have a little more room to be me. I feel a bit guilty that I appear so pleased to be ‘rid’ of my children, but the reality is I know they will benefit from seeing me with a wider range of interests and achievements. Besides, I plan to continue as a full time mum so there really won’t be a massive change for them. I will still be taking them to school, doing their washing, helping with homework, cooking their dinner and acting as chief chauffeur and mediator of conflict resolution. But, I also want a beautiful home full of handmade and homecooked goodies and I want a lush and productive garden. I want to be fit and healthy and I want to run my own business and earn money in a way that leaves me free to offer them all the love and support they need, whenever they need it.

However, I don’t intend this blog to be a gushing stream of parenting related traumas! I want to share and record all the things that make me me, not the parent stuff – I get plenty of that in the day job. I am sooo excited about the possibilities now open to me, but I am also overwhelmed with my decade long bucket list. Watch this space to find out what I do next!

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